Day 2: Back to "Normal".

So here we are Tuesday, the next day, so everything should be back to our normal routine right? Well, what do you consider "Normal"? I woke up without my other half, got Ava ready and went to work, went to the store and locked my keys in my car, went to call my honey for help and realized he isn't going to be able to come and help me, came home to an empty house.

It is difficult for me to come home to an empty house and realize that this is "normal" now, at least for a little while. And I hate this "normal". I hated the feeling when I realized Nick couldn't come running to my rescue like he has so many times before. I guess you don't realize how much a spouse does for you until they aren't there to do it anymore.

As much as it sucks for me to be here I can only imagine what it must be like for him. At least here I have family and friends to surround me with love and support. He doesn't have that. He is truly alone. Being torn down to be brought up the way the Marines want him. When I look at it that way it makes my heart break in an entirely different way. I miss my future marine and I can't wait to be in his arms again.

Well, that is all for now. Stay tuned as the days grow longer and my heart grows stronger.

Day 1: the departure.

When Nick told me he wanted to join the Marines I was a little apprehensive but, it has been something he has wanted to do for a long time so I said okay. When he swore in it still felt like we had so long before he had to leave so I was still feeling pretty fine. We had our ups and downs with the stress of unemployment, a sick child, etc. When we got married we said till death do us part and that is what we both meant. No matter how low our valleys we both know how much we love each other.

So Nick left today, and this is one of those times you almost wish your relationship was in a valley so it wouldn't be so hard to let him leave. I tried to be strong and hold it together but Nick and I have never been apart for longer than a few days. This is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with.

I am so proud of him. He has done so much for our little fam[ily] and now he is making one of the biggest sacrifices of our lives. He is such an amazing man and I will be here holding down the fort until he is back in my arms again.

Watching him walk through security and onto the beginning of our future I couldn't help but smile and cry. It will be a hard few months and I will miss him every second of every day. I am surrounded by so much love and support it is an incredible feeling.

Well, that's all for now I suppose. Stay tuned as the days get longer and my heart grows stronger.